| Last night I had a string of the most bizarre nightmares, two of which I remember. The first involved performing a play on a cruise ship with a bunch of drama kids from Highschool. The set was half stage, half pool, with action sometimes taking place in the water. After the final bow, everyone jumps into a pool that runs across the front of the stage and swims to an exit stage left. The exit is a narrow pipe with rungs for climbing, and it takes us far above the ships deck, where there are only pipes and wires, with nothing to stand on. By the time we realized this, we cannot decend back down the pipe. I'm not sure why. So I sway there terrified for what seems a lifetime, untill one person (Michelle) finds a way to decend and find help. When the help arrives it turns out to be my dad, because he was the only adult on the cruise ship skinny enough to climb up the pipe. I don't know if he was able to help me down or not, because the dream abruptly switched to something else.
After several more abrupt switches, I remember another nightmare, perhaps even more strange. I was on the sitcom, Fresh Prince of Belaire. Apparently, Uncle Phil had sent a third daughter to live in some small city in Eastern Italy, but was somehow in denial about why she wanted to be there. So I set out with a friend to find out what this city could possibly offer. Rather that ending up in Eastern Italy, we somehow managed to get to Easter France instead. It was pouring down rain, and getting dark. I bought a hat and we rented a carrage (or canoe) and set out to find dinner and a place to stay for the night. We traveled along a river and came across this beautiful stone ship carved like a mermaid. When we tried to take a picture of it, it began to sail away of its own accord. We follow it to a widening in the river where there were hundreds of similarly beautiful stone sculptures just floating around in the river. Then, in a boggling non-sequitor, My teeth spontaneously started to crumbling and fall out. I wake up frantic, checking my mouth with my fingers. All is well.
Where is this rampant creativity when I'm awake. Seriously. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| Here's my new theory:
Eatting, Sleeping, Getting Laid.
This is what people do. Everything eventually relates back to one of these things. Any activity that human beings willfully engage in, however innocuous, is almost certain to tie back to at least one of them.
So maybe this isnt particularly groundbreaking, but I'm certainly becoming cynical in my old age. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| interpretive art annoys me.
At that point it's either
(a)"they're too smart for me because I just don't get it" or
(b)" they're dumbasses acting like they're intellectually elite"
the irony then is, there is no way to tell the difference. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Lately I've been feeling pre-maturely old. Back in highschool I was such an over acheiver. I played soccer, was involved in orchestra and drama and still managed to do really well in school. Where did I get all that motivation and energy? And where has it all gone? All I do anymore is focus on architecture. I don't know if I can stand to do one thing for the rest of my life, just filling in the gaps with sleep. I want to pick up old hobbies, but I'm just too tired.
On a totally unrelated note, I went down to Blacksburg this past weekend to celebrate my 21st birthday. It went ok. It unfortunately made me realize how many people are gone, and made me kind of sad. Oh well I need to get back to homework. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Goldfrapp - Black Cherry | | Time: | 01:19 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/blue/tired.gif) tired |
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| Contentment =
- Going to street fairs, bizarres, flower markets, farmer's markets, anything where you can shop outside
- Playing on the living room floor with my sister's puppy
- Reading a book that I've looked forward to reading
- Hanging out in bookstores and libraries
- Buying and wearing new clothes
- Going to lunch with my Mom
- Sleeping
- Sitting in hammocks
- Watching plays or musicals or going to concerts
- Spooning
- Swiming in streams
- Taking walks middle of the night, especially across the drillfield
- Playing with kittens
- Listening to music
Goodnight | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Spiders have taken over my room. There are webs everywhere.
I never realize how much junk I have untill I have to move it. My closet's pretty much emptied out. I should really tackle my bookcase and the stack of binders on the floor, but I'm being lazy. I'd much rather just go to Bollo's and read my book.
Blacksburg is such a wonderful town. There's always somewhere to go. I'll definately miss it.
I should start making paper cranes again. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Bush - Glycerine | | Time: | 10:49 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/blue/sad.gif) lonely |
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| So I've been feeling a little down. Makes sense, since I'm staying in on a Friday night for the umteenth week in a row. I guess part of it is sitting in the afterglow of my European adventure, and going out every night. I start my internship in Baltimore in a month and I can't help being a bit aprehensive. I really kind of wish that I was heading back to Blacksburg in the Fall. It was pretty much on a whim that I pursed an internship in the first place. Honestly, if I'm lonely here at home, it's gonna be tough living in some old lady's basement in a strange city.
On a completely different note entirely, I finally got to see Manda and Flora this week. It was wonderful. In both cases we had so much to catch up on. So all in all a good week, even though I havn't done much.
My sister's dog is driving me crazy though. :) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | On Thursday my parents and took a trip down to Blacksburg to make them feel more at ease about me driving on my own next week. Not much else has happened lately. I miss Todd a lot. I'm a little worried about how things are going to be. Other than that I'm looking forward to starting a new semester and actually having a car. That'll make things a lot easier. I'm still undecided about what elective I'll be taking. I'll be working at the bookstore for the first coupe weeks. It'll be nice to have some money of my own. Hopefully I'll get to see Larry and hang out with Flora sometime this week before I go back. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Got two new pairs of exciting underwear today when out with the girls. Miraculously that was all I bought. My efforts to control money spending are paying off much better than those to control my hormones. Too often I embarass myself by checking out guys that are too young for me. Makes me feel creepy. I don't really buy into any of the New Year's resolution malarkie. Spontaneously though I've been feeling inspired to live life a little more fully. I was thinking about going to the Freedom Center tomorrow but I dread being one of those people that clog up the gym in January and annoy all the regulars. Rightfully so. I know I was annoyed last year when I actually ran ever day and could never get a treadmill. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Break so far has been pretty nice. I've slept alot, and read a lot, and those are two of my favorite things. Solstealr my mum and I went to see A Series of Unfortunate Events today. I'm really eager to get ahold of the books. As far as I could tell, the movie was very well cast. Jude Law's voice as the narrator was a nice touch.
Went to penance last night for the first time in a while. It's really pretty refreshing. The atmosphere during a penance service is so heavy with tension that once your out it's just gives you such a happy feeling. It's really refreshing.
I think I'm gonna go read a while before bed. I took a big nap in the middle of the day which will probably keep me up late again. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| [x] - you've done
[ ] - you haven't done
[x ] kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ] crashed a friend's car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] are in love.
[x] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ x] snuck out of your parent's house.
[x ] ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] ever dated someone of the same sex.
[x ] had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] been arrested.
[x ] made out with a stranger.
[] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated New Years in Times Square, New York.
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] been to Europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] slept with a co-worker.
[ ] cut myself on purpose.
[ ] been married.
[ ] gotten divorced.
[ ] had children.
[ x] seen someone die.
[ ] been to Africa.
[ ] are going out with one of your livejournal friends.
[x] slapped someone you liked, not in a serious manner though.
[ ] driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/concert.
[ x] been to Canada.
[ ] been to Mexico
[x] been on a plane.
[x] seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] thrown up in a bar.
[ ] purposely set a part of yourself on fire.
[ ] been snowboarding.
[x] eaten sushi.
[ ] met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] met someone in person from livejournal.
[ ] met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] taken painkillers for fun.
[ ] intentionally burned yourself.
[x] miss someone right now.
[x] kissed just a friend
[ ] have a boyfriend/girlfriend right now.
[x] ever been asked to a formal dance.
[ ] sick and tired of the opposite sex.
[ ] lived in your own place that you've payed for.
[ ] worked a full time job.
[ x] been moshing at a concert.
[ ] own an ipod
[ ] have worn a 'members only' jacket.
[x] have/had a roommate.
[x] have the Fresh Prince of Bel Air theme memorized.
[ ] been to both coasts.
[ ] have eaten at Big Boy.
[ x] have 5 or more scarves.
[ ] dated your professor.
[ x] drink coffee.
[ ] smoked like it was your job.
[x] burned a cd for someone that meant alot to you, but they could care less how you arranged the tracks.
[ ] drank transatlantique.
[x] wanted someone you can't have.
[ ] read one hundred years of solitude.
[ ] love mcdonalds breakfast with your entire heart. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | So even though I've been feeling scruff and unattractive lately, I've been having guys approach me alot in the last couple of weeks. The first one I met on the bus. Seemed really nice, has an eyebrow ring, so we went to lunch today. I get the impression that he's a big punk rock enthusiaist and we seem to like a lot of the same foods. He likes peperonni and black olives on his pizza just like me. The other guy came up to me in Burger King. He's in a film class, reads SciFi, listens to Metal. I don't know if I'm tempted either way though. Still kind of hung up on my Indie rock boy :( | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:11 pm | | Current Mood: | dependant |
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| | I'm kind of in one of those nobody understands me moods, and I'm supposed to be going out to a party in a half hour. Not the best mentality to head out with. Hopefully Kent will cheer me up. It should be a good party too, once I get out of this funk. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| A fter abandoning the internet for so many months it's hard to get back in the swing of it. Unfortunately my sudden crusade to experience life beyond the computer screen had the horrible side effect of putting me out of touch with a lot of people I care about. Hopefully the damage can be controled.
It's good to be back to school even though the next two weeks are gonna be ridiculously busy. Infact I should probably be doing Structures homework instead of fiddling around on my computer.
I guess it's good that I'm busy. It keeps my mind off the fact that I've become abruptly and disconcertingly single again. Todd and I are getting along really well but I realize now that he can't be my social crutch anymore.
On a happier note there's a big tub of peanut brittle on my counter. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna start writing in this thing again and reading my friends page regularly and commenting. gotta bridge the gap. gonna try hard. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Today at my pinup, Professor OBrien said my work was strong and at the top of the class. Big achievement for me. So happy. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The Marriage of Figaro | | Time: | 01:55 am | | Current Mood: | drained |
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| Freezers, in general, are very good at keeping things cold. This however, does not seem to fit the asperations of my freezer, because it has let my Godiva icecream turn to goop. Yes, goop. So if anyone wants a faulty freezer or goopy Godiva icecream let me know.
Other than the disappointment of finding my icecream not quite how I left it I've had a pretty good day. I took the kitties to the adoption this morning since my mom had to be at a meeting. Anna didn't go with me since Generous George's made her sick last night so I let her sleep in. We've just gotten four beautiful orange tiger kittens. They're pretty, but unfortunately they're not very friendly.
I watched a nice wholesome Disney movie with my parents tonight. It's getting hard to find movies that I can watch with them without getting bored or embarassed. Now that the LOTR's trilogy is all done there isn't anything in theaters (outside of kids movies) that they'd be willing to go see. I like watching movies with my family. It's one of those few 'together' activities that we can do without actually having to talk to one another.
I had planed on making this a much longer entry, packed full of my life's mundane little details, but I'm tired, so I'll save the exercises in prose for some other time. I really do need to do something creative soon. Just to assure myself. So I will know I can still do it. Writing tends to be the most readily satisfying type of creative outlet I have, because there is not pressure. Since quite a few of my friends are aspiring to careers in the literary world, I kinda figure that even if everything I write is crap, at least I know there are those out there that are gonna pick up the slack and make sure the world doesn't go without some damn good stuff to read. | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Freudian Inventory Results | Genital (50%) you appear to be stuck between destructive and constructive outlooks.
Latency (60%) you appear to have a good balance of knowledge seeking and practicality.
Phallic (63%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity.
Anal (80%) you appear to be overly self controlled, organized, and subservient to authority.
Oral (66%) you appear to be overly passive and dependent, wanting things to be given to you instead of working for them.
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